Why Me?
Quita

Love is special and love is kind
I look for this each day, but never find.
I've cried many rivers and filled many oceans...
But now I float on into the days feeling no emotions.

I wonder when I will find love.
I thought many times that I had
Later....I ended up so sad
To know that my relationship was ending so fast.

Ending because my better half had two loves at one time
Both pregnant -- I later come to find.
I gave him my heart, my life, my soul...
Only for him to abuse me and leave me unwhole.

Now I am broken, trying to heal
Crying, not eating, What's the deal?
A man with no stability, nothing to give...
His laughing--thinking this was a quick thrill.

Only for me to wake up 13 years later --still in love...
Having difficulties trying to even run...
Giving myself in all kinds of ways for his pleasure and fun...
Wondering what I have gained...only to find none.

I ask Why Me?
Why have I let this man take my life and turn it upside down.
I ask Why Me?
Why I let this man make me cry and feel no self-worth.
I ask Why Me?
Why have I allowed this man to be the only man in my life.
I ask Why Me?
Why I allowed the cheating and the drama from the other mama's
I ask Why Me?
Why I didn't leave sooner
I ask Why Me?
Why I can't let go...time after time...after time
I ask Why Me?
Why have I stayed and supported him through his mishaps
I ask Why Me?
Why do I love him unconditionally like I do
I ask Why Me?
Why do I hurt myself each day allowing this man access to me
I ask Why Me?
Why am I weak when it comes to his smile and his charm
I ask Why Me?
Why I allowed the abuse - physically, mentally, verbally...
I ask Why Me?
Why am I now tired and burned out
- from trying and trying
- from being unhappy day after day
- from not knowing that I have self-worth
- from not knowing that there's more to life
- from not living my days left to the fullest......

Why Me I Ask.....

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